Numb & Indifferent

Alright... Christine, you inspired me to start a personal blog. I never ever thought that I would ever do this but here I am, about to write cheesy stuffs about my everyday life, which is really bloody insignificant (if you asked me).

As many of you know.... I have this really lousy and shitty insomnia problem that can't seemed to be solved. Hence, the blog name insomniac. As for sueno, it actually is sleep in spanish, so it basically explains itself.

So today, I finally ran out of Medical Certificates (MCs) and have to go back to bloody camp. However, I OVERSLEPT!!!!! The typical book in time for me to book into camp would be by 8am in the morning. I woke up at 8.30am. And that was after countless calls from my office. I was told to report to camp immediately and I did.

I got to camp at about 10am. Apparently, my boss wasn't too pleased about it. I got quite a good ticking off and was yelled at for a good half an hour. He said I was irresponsible and was trying to "chao keng". Surprisingly, I was numb to his yelling and whatever he said. I just didn't feel anything. I don't feel anything anymore. I wasn't upset. Nor was I angry. I don't know why it has become like that. I used to get upset when I'm accused of things I didn't do, but this time round, it just didn't affect me. All I could think about was, "Get on with it already. I'm tired and I wanna have my nap. Your screaming is giving me a headache. Bollocks!! I really am very tired and want to sleep." Numb and indifference was all I felt. Sheesh....

Anyway, after the yelling session, I really did fall asleep. Lol!! I slept till like about 2pm then went for lunch with CO PA and Sam. For those of you who don't know what CO PA is, it is Commanding Officer's Personal Assistant. Fancy title for someone who gets pushed around all the time by the top brass and does lots of sai kang. Lol. Told Sam about the morning fiasco and he said something that made a whole lot of sense. He said, "It's not fault you can't sleep and can't wake up. They should just try to understand that. It is a f*&^ing medical condition. It's not like you did it on purpose." Yeah, I didn't do it on purpose. I mean if I really didn't bother about camp, would I even have gone back to camp on the request of my boss? Come on, give me a break.

For the rest of the day, I couldn't help but just look forward to booking out time at 5.30pm.

Met my unit's Docu Clerk on the train home. She said that maybe I should go on a short vacation and get away from stuff. I think it might actually be worth considering. I guess we shall see. I'm not really keen on it but I'm not writing it off totally just yet.

I'm actually kinda afraid to sleep right now cause I'm araid that if I sleep I'll be late again. Gosh, I really don't know what to do.

Sorry Christine that I didn't answer your phone earlier. If not I could have joined the mahjon session. My apologies. We can always play some other time.